What the?

by ojl

What is this all about?
Why did you just pack up and leave?
Why didnt you just throw me out
So I didn't have blood all over my sleeve

I cut myself deeply each day
Just like the way you cut out
My heart when you just said
I can't take this, I won't stay

Then don't stay, damn it
Leave me the hell alone
Leave me to deal with all the shit you left
When you look back,
I will be here, just like a stone

You think its easy?
You think you can deal with it?
Believe me, one day
You will experience all this shit

And when you come back and plead
Saying sorry and all that jazz
I will be here smiling
Thinking of how you lost what you already had

How Many Times

by ojl

How many times must I say
How happy you make me feel
WHen you tell me your stories
Hoping ours will become real

I feel the world closing in
I feel the clouds rolling in
I just wonder why the world rewards
Only those who live in sin

Is hope just another word
To lead everyone to wrong
Assumptions that everything
Even pain can make you strong

Is love just another word
To make someone regret
Doing what his heart thinks is right
Things we will never forget

Is faith just another feeling
To make you rely on hope
That one day something
Maybe love, will catch you in awe

Drunk and Smitten by Beauty that is Jasmine 

Am I A BADASS?

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Get Out of Here

by ojl

What's wrong with me?
What did I do?
Why am I so different
From the man you want me to
Be with for the rest of your life

Go on, get out of here
Leave me alone with my pain
Trying to keep myself from
killing myself from your disdain

Don't be here to see me
As I walk this long journey
Through the road filled
With self-doubt and insecurity

Look away, don't stand by near
Don't look at me with those eyes
Making me wish I was there
For just one moment with my disguise.

The Beauty of the English Language

DORMITORY: When you rearrange the letters: DIRTY ROOM
PRESBYTERIAN: When you rearrange the letters: BEST IN PRAYER
DESPERATION: When you rearrange the letters: A ROPE ENDS IT
GEORGE BUSH: When you rearrange the letters: HE BUGS GORE
THE MORSE CODE: When you rearrange the letters: HERE COME DOTS
SLOT MACHINES: When you rearrange the letters: CASH LOST IN ME
ANIMOSITY: When you rearrange the letters: IS NO AMITY
MOTHER-IN-LAW: When you rearrange the letters: WOMAN HITLER
SNOOZE ALARMS: When you rearrange the letters: ALAS! NO MORE Z 'S
A DECIMAL POINT: When you rearrange the letters: IM A DOT IN PLACE
THE EARTHQUAKES: When you rearrange the letters: THAT QUEER SHAKE
ELEVEN PLUS TWO: When you rearrange the letters: TWELVE PLUS ONE

AND FOR THE GRAND FINALE...

PRESIDENT CLINTON OF THE USA: When you rearrange the letters (With no letters left over and using each letter only once): TO COPULATE HE FINDS INTERNS

Indifferent

by ojl


Indifferent, why are you so indifferent?
How can you stand there with all your friends?
How many nights I spent thinking about what went wrong?
How many days go by trying to act strong?

Those days of happiness are gone
Now I am here alone
Trying to figure out what went wrong
When I see you I try to act...

Strong, stronger than what I can ever be
Keeping all the pain locked up inside
Spend so many nights trying to kill myself
For what I did, or what I didn't

All the pain, all the hurt,
Why can't I deal with it?
Why do I act as if I was...

Strong, stronger than what I can ever be
Keeping all the pain locked up inside
Spend so many nights trying to kill myself
For what I did, or what I didn't

Indifferent, How can I act indifferent?
When all I've lived for is gone
Trying to find ways to kill
The pain I have inside, Still.